She said “No” but i couldnt listen. Maybe if you told me whats up everything could of been different. Its hard not knowing i hope you know that? Keeps me on edge. Kept me on the edge of that building not knowing if your words are gunna make me jump or if your words will hold me tight and never let go. As i wait staring at this screen and i get nothing but a few of these :/ and alot of beating around the bush. I just needed a small break. I pressed the START button for a time out cause i don’t think you know how bad i needed that. Feeling as if you have no control of the tears that fall down your face and how hard your heart pounds cause of the answer you hope you dont receive. I needed that little break to collect my thoughts. But even still your voice and choice chills me to the bone. Waking up cause of nightmares of you walking out that door, of you breaking my heart. Still on edge not knowing if its a push or pull. I know your tired but please dont give up. I hope you pull…cause these dangerous thought wont stop creeping and its not something i could ever wish to happen and on top on that i really could use being in your arms right now. :/
I Love you Soo Much Baby. 091010.